Chapters

An Autobiography in Five Chapters by Portia Nelson

Chapter 1 I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost….I am helpless. It isn’t my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter 2 I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the side walk. I pretend I don’t see it. I fall in again. I can’t believe I am in the same place.

But it isn’t my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter 3

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it is there.

I fall in….it’s a habit…but my eyes are open.

I know where I am. It is my fault.

I get out immediately.

Chapter 4

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

Chapter 5

I walk down a different street

I copied this poem written by Portia Nelson because I know many of us have felt this way on more than one occasion. We fall into a routine or find ourselves in a situation were we keep repeating behaviors. It is when we turn to Chapter 3 that we realize that we need a change because what we are doing is not working. So, we turn the page and we are on Chapter 4. This is where we find ourselves realizing that we need to make a change.

For the past 20+ years I have worked on and off in the manufacturing/corporate world. During that time I have worked for 3 companies that closed. I found myself endlessly searching for a new job. Sometimes it would take 3 years to find one and when I did, well, 2 or 3 years later I would get my notice. The last time was in September 2015. We were notified in August that September 30th would be our last day. I saw the hole in the sidewalk when I took the position 2 years earlier. My eyes were open when I fell in. During the time I worked at the last place I had the opportunity to go work somewhere else but I felt like I need to stay at my job because things were changing quickly. If I would have taken that job, I would still be employed.

I have filled out hundreds of applications and sent hundreds of resumes. I have been to 2 interviews and as I sat in my last interview I thought to myself "I need to find a different street."

This is my Chapter 5.


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